My Beautifully Girlfriend Ixis

So… in the middle of this year in 2022 I met Ixis my current partner now in May, and after going thru a rough breakup with my Ex-boyfriend Adam in April, I then decided to go and download the Her App, which was a lesbian dating app to approach females, after from getting sick of being with a man for over 2 years, and staying with him. 

How we met was crazy. First, I posted a status into the community on Her App saying, “I’m fed up with all the fake females that approached me, and needed only genuine females out there that wants to be be my partner in life, and I am from Australia”. 

So I put out that post and then 10 minutes later. Out of nowhere, Ixis then liked my post, and she then started to message me. We then clicked from there, and it all went well all the way to WhatsApp later, where we talk more into detail. At first, I was like? Who is this pretty girl?? Out of the blues, She had a cute baby face, and a unique personality, that wanted my attention, and I was finally happy. Because, I was desperate for my last option, cause I couldn’t stand being alone anymore, so I took my chance this time. And plus, I’m not going back for another guy, cause it’s just gonna end up bad in the end, just like the rest of the guys from my encounter. Plus, because most girls I encountered, they all intend to be non-approachable, or just not even interested in any long conversations with me, so I intend to feel like I lost all my hope to even find that girl anywhere. 

But Ixis, she was totally different. She made so much effort that I was amazed about, and happy. We exchanged photos, and videos, and then we decided later to go on webcam together, where and when she felted more comfortable to getting to know me, that a pretty girl like myself, isn’t “Fake”. My first impression of her was like… She’s so adorable, and beautiful, with that sexy American accent. It was like “OMG” My heart is melting! And plus, she’s “White” which was a bonus. Because, I find that I’m more attracted to western woman more than asian woman in general.

After that moment of getting to know her more, I was starting to fall in love with her, but it took awhile to get there, slowly each day. Eventually it grew so much. At first, I did tried to test her a bit, but then when time went by, where my heart was finally healed from my last breakup, I then shown her that I was a completely different girl towards her, from all the worst ex-girlfriend that she had encountered, that she’s been with for all those years. I changed her view on woman, that I was the only girl that cared, to even validate her for her true authentic self.

Ixis, was super caring, she was sweet. She shown me her raw side. Her worse side, and then eventually her good side at the end. But, I took all that in like a “Strong Woman”. She made me feel like the best, but then brings out my worst at times too. We had so much fights and makeup love, just like all other couples do, so we ain’t “PERFECT”. This was my very first serious relationship with a female. Because, I never… ever… had a serious relationship with a female, that lasted more than 3 months. Ixis, she was the only girl who did managed to surpass that 3 months mark and manage to keep me, and love me for all my flaws. With other female partners in the past, they all left, cause they didn’t have a good heart. But Ixis, she was different, she did have a big heart. A heart of gold. She was the only girl that would be there for me. And spend so much time with me like we are out of this world together.

Whenever we fight, I know for a fact, that whenever I pull away from her, she never gave up on me, like those other girls did. But. She stood, and stay, by my side. I even wrote songs about her and made her feel special, and even send her a care gift package, filled up with all surprises to make her happy. She even send me a perfume for my birthday, and lots of other gifts. One thing I did so bad, was keep a secret from her, with all my other partners too. But… I eventually confronted to myself, and confessed to her about my secret lover Fiona, that I held on for so long over those 10 years, that it was torturing my life throughout all the suffer, that I’ve been through from Fiona. Because of Fiona, I now have a scar mark of her name on my arm. Because I cared so deeply, that it hurts me so bad. But Ixis, she’d healed me back to being a lovable person again. Because of Ixis, I will no longer hold anything back from her anymore. She was very hurt, when I told her about the secret. But… It took her awhile to let go, and to forgive me. She changed me for the better. And empower me as a trans woman. And, that’s the reason why I loved her so much, she is the only woman on this earth that matters to me now and I see a future with her.

In two years time, in 2024 or 2025, I will be travelling to go see Ixis in the United States of Florida State. The love of my life is awaiting for me. I can’t wait to that day arrives. And on that day, I will feel that it will be like magic where me and Ixis can then finally be together. She’s the only girl that I had a soul connection with and not like with any other females from my past that damaged me. 

Ixis, she’s my soul mate. One day, I will eventually thinking of marrying her. And when it happens, I then wanted to be that girl in a beautiful wedding dress, having a beautiful smile and have the best wedding photo shoot with my Wife Ixis, wearing a cute tuxedo suit. So then, I can be the only girl that feels so special from her, where she then confesses to me with her vow letter in the ceremony of our wedding day. So much will take place. But I already had a vision of that happening in my head. And when that day comes… I will be super happily to even be her Wife. 

My love for Ixis, it will never change for anyone. I will always love her, and stay by her side. Forever! We will be the power couple. Even tho, I’m a pansexual, whereas Ixis, she’s a lesbian. And now, I’m inside lesbian relationship. I am happily to be proud to be with a female. And only with her as the female of my life. She’s my soul mate. I will take care of her and never let her go. 

I hope this will be my first, and the last time, in ending up writing about my love partner. Because I’m sick, and tired of being replace by someone. It hurts!!! So much!!! I’ve been a heart broken soul for so long, and now, I’m ready to be a healed Loveable Soul again. That my heart can feel the real genuine love once again, and to receive and to give it back once more. Especially from my partner in crime Ixis.   

I hope you see this Ixis, and know that I love you deeply inside with all my heart. That you are my dream girl.